the devil and me

I know you make me the worst version of myself you always been the one growing my devilish side
I know that when I'm with you I'm the self I always try to hide
You're the box containing my sins my mistakes and the dark spots that used to live in my mind
You're the other reflection of my mirror the one hanging upside down confused and blurry
Your are everything that made me sad angry or sorry
The other me
The one no one truly see
And I know u walking away is for the best
When you're gone the beast inside me slept in his nest
Like a sweet little angel
An angel without wings as it has fallen from heaven a long time ago
I know you had to move on and let go
You needed to become a better version and make me one
I understand but...
But you need to know it's not that easy
The upside-down mirror was part of me and as you left it shuttered
Now that part is missing and I will be never all
Its maybe for the best but I'll be always incomplete
Something missing and that something is you
My sweet devil
I am now an angel
An angel with broken heart and a tear stuck in his eyes
An angel that will never recover from all the betrayal and lies
Not today not tomorrow not in a thousand years not even when it dies
It will never be same and heaven is not an option
As an angel without wings is casted away
When I die without you by my side I'll be a trapped soul
Somewhere in between
Not in eden not in hell but somewhere is never seen
Somewhere where the lost souls live forever in torment
Longing for the one thing missing as I am longing for "you "

عسى

اقتربت من الله أكثر..
اتجهت بكل قلبي للصلاة و الصوم..
ابحث بين السجدة و الركعة عن سلام يكتنفني...
تضرعت كثيرا بيدين مضمومتين إلى صدري و دموع تغسل خدي...
ترجيت الله أن ينقذني منك...اكبر..اكبر الله علي انسى اسمك..بين تكبيرتين..
استغفر كل الليل.... فحبك خطيئة وحده ربي قادر على غفرانها...
بكل الإيمان الساكن بين ضلوعي و بكل الحب الذي أحمله للله وحده.. كنت مقتنعة انك ستمحى...
و انمحيت.
حمدت الله كثيرا حين وجدتني ابتسم في سجودي لذكرى رجل أنعم به ربي لي من بعدك.... حينها أيقنت أن فقدانك رحمة... و عسى أن تكرهوا شيئا و هو خير لكم...